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ecause I want to not perish, im tortured by Jesus
this is what Jesus told me about why he persecutes
persecution is torture from-this is how Jesus treats me often talking to me like a maffia character-recieved 4-28-2007-close me, go, gabriel pointed, hollie showed, record, abate him pointed Jesus, this prophet, said, I can do, what ever I want, but, I wanted, him to walk in circles, and, spin when stopped(I di!d do this, and that means, get out of van, and spin around as walk, tostore, insdie, spin in circles while in the line, making coffee, pupmping gas, sometimes like a blur, non stop, and i became so despaired I did not want to even get out of my van, and I was living in it, so this was to destroy me), he wont, he did for a while, abate said Jesus, torture, cast out, be teasing,fiery darts, mocking, this is how I tease, I tell him things that hurt him deep in his heart, teasing, piercing his heart, throwing him in a rage, then, bringing back, then, all over again, winking at him to tease, entering into his heart, driving him crazy, tell me I can do what I want, and, dont do it, Ill let you serve me, for years, steal your youth, then, abate him said Jesus, I slur words to tease, all day, all night, I carress his dick to tease, all day, elijah said Jesus, this is, the price I charge for revelations, you are, embarrasing me, telling what im doing, to you, I drive to you the brink of sin, you know me said, Jesus, I get you so angry, anger all day, !this is my price for revelations, put it on the front the page, for the whole world to see, abated said Jesus, walk in circles and spin when stopped, or, Ill destroy you, and you say, destroy me, right here, on the internet, in front of all, the Lord says, whom I abated, I do it, hundreds of times, till myheart changes toward, you are angering me, telling what im doing, people are laughing at me, says the Lord, and, you think, they should, I want you humble in my eyes, and, this makes you, you are humble, but, not being able to do what I want is humble, if you backslide, and nobody, can stand, with me doing all this, I wont, call you back, abate him said Jesus, im going to drive you to comit iniquity and sin, out, cause, I want you abated, brought to nothing and the reason is, no reason, I cause it to rain on the just and unjust, that was Jesus, smiling, it took over 18 years, to rage, now, ive almost driven this prophet out, and he is, embarrasing me, im going to, for not,! walking in circles, and, spinning when stopped, put you in fire, in m y prescence, and mock you, all of, eternity saith the LOrd, I saw Jesus in a vision and he said things like, "Im gonna get you cut off", "I got him", "abase". I keep seeing an eye wink at me and this teases hurts myheart. What God is doing to me non stop is teasing me saying things that hurt my heart, talking to me like a smart ellic, I feel electricity flowing over my peeing utensil, and this hurts me. Jesus will enter into my heart and throw me in a rage by making me jelous, and God let me know he makes me jelous, to hate. God let me know that I would have kept on worshipping him, but this is what he now wants, make me to come and worship at his feet, in other words, cause me to hate and be jelous of him and come and beg him to take away my plagues, quit torturing me. God said something like, "I dont want my people to have teeth, I want them abated". Is this the manifod temptations that peter was talking about and what paul sought God to take away from him twice. Is this the plagues that is mentioned in REVELATION where they did not repent and give God glory, and cursed God, Did I mention that I begged God and fasted and I begged until there was no more begging left in me. Thatmeans right now im almost just an object of toture, possibly amusing Jesus, and he has told me that he wants me to walk away for two months, and he often causes me to get so angry and knows how that I cant stand to be in his prescence and teases me, "I caused you to comit iniquity", and is this why JEsus talked about being to proud to beg, because begging did not good, like in my case. God lets me know, "who I abase, I abase till they dont want the Lord no more". I often see God and he laughs at me. If you break the whole law by comitting one sin or being disobediant one time, what if God tells you like he wanted me to do, walk in circles and spin when stopped, something that nobody would do for years and years and years and years. This means, make your coffee while spinning in circles, go up the steps in circles, spin so fast while stopped that you look like blur, spin in circles in that church God would tell me till the police come and remove me. God had me doing stufflike this, and this despaired me so much I did not even want to get out of van I was living in. My gums were already being fiery darted, causing recession since about 1990. Why do you hate me so much Jesus, tell people that read this why you wanted me to get used up by you and then you turn on me like this, tell them JEsus. God keeps telling me that he wants to make me quit from the heart, so I often find that God causes purposely me to hate him and knows how, and Ive seen him in visions, like in one he come down in a vision with a pin and poked my heart and all my desire to live for Jesus poured right out, so, no desire to live for Jesus, and being torutred by God and mybe satan as well, and I see Jesus in visions laughing at me, pointing at me, "I got you". Ill have gum grafts if I feel a tooth will be lost.......my feelings are, if your willing to do this LORd, then explain it to the whole world or all who read.